Let me put a face on one “Angry
Young Black Man.” I have known Antonio Carter for eight years, since 2008, his
senior year at St. Louis’ Roosevelt High School. That fall, Antonio was an 18-year old high
school football star. I wrote extensively about his football career in the 2008
book “Riding the Storm Out: A Year of Inner City High School Football.” At the
time, like many of his Roosevelt Roughrider teammates, he dreamed of a college
football scholarship as the vehicle that would provide him with a one-way
ticket out of the St. Louis ghetto.
Carter, as a senior in high school;
stood 5’5” tall and weighed, with rocks in his pockets, 150 pounds. On the
football field he was fearless, more guts than a fish market. Sheldon
Richardson is today a multi-millionaire and NFL Rookie of the Year for the New
York Jets. In 2008 he was a 285 pound lineman for Gateway Tech High School.
When Carter and Richardson met on the gridiron that fall, Carter on his first
carry of the game, intentionally cut back to the inside for the opportunity to
run over the twice his size Richardson. Big Sheldon was AWOL for the rest of
the game, a three touchdown Roosevelt win. As a glib assistant coach at
Roosevelt told me, “that little fellow will knock your dick stiff.”
An image from that season of
eight years ago that will be forever etched in my memory: Carter, on a picture
perfect Saturday afternoon, on the green grass of Roughrider Stadium, with the
football secured in his strong grasp, sweeping the left side of the line,
headed for the end zone. For three hours each fall Saturday Antonio Carter did
what he loved – and for an all too short interlude, his world spun in greased
grooves.
Today, Antonio fits perfectly
white Middle America’s stereotype of the fulminating rock throwing rioter:
black, raised in the ghetto, dreadlocks, 26-years old and chronically un(der)
employed. I, however, know Antonio Carter to be courageous, tenacious and
loyal. Everyone should have the opportunity to call such an angry young black
man, friend.
Just like at Roosevelt eight
years ago, Carter in 2016, to facilitate his football dreams, still rides from the
south side home of his mother, the city bus. Twice for weekly practices and
again on Saturday’s for games, he dresses in his football gear, sans his
shoulder pads and helmet, which he carries with him, and boards the public
transportation link for an hour long sojourn each way to the North County
Jennings High School field. Carter, who
lacks a car, makes due with the bus. “I ain’t too proud to ride the bus,”
Carter says, “If that is what I got to do to keep playing football.”
I know Antonio Carter; know
his grit, know his courage, know his character. He has so much potential, yet
on the surface and in consideration of his current lot, “what a waste,” would
be an apt assessment. Antonio Carter is reaching a demarcation line for young
black men who live in urban cities - 25 years of age. If by that age the
streets have not taken hold, then there is hope. But if the allure has become
to strong and the frustration borne of lack of economic opportunity so
overwhelming, then the dye has been cast and I am afraid my friend has a bleak
future.
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